turns out i can keep a promise made to myself. i just don't make enough of them.
in yesterday's post i said i would wake up early as fuck, be productive as fuck, and sleep on fucking time. and i have done 2/3 things and on track for the last. i feel so good.
i did goof around for some time, maybe a few hours here or there but overall i did what i said i would, and that makes me want to keep going. seems i can do something i set my mind to and i say that because i got just 3 to 3.5 hours of sleep last night because i wanted to be up early as fuck and still today was one of the most productive days i've had in a very long time (in many years).
oh yes, i also said i'd eat clean and i did. perfect score.
now what i want is to keep going. every day just like i did today but getting better in some way every day too. that's all i can think of doing right now. the question is how and the answer i am looking for. but for now what i can say is that making promises to yourself seems to work and i have to try it again tonight.
so, tomorrow is a saturday and that means i'll be at home or i may visit my fitness coach in delhi. either way, i will have a lot of empty time during the day. today after i completed my morning routine, if i didn't have classes i would not know what to do. and i don't want that to happen. remember, make it easy to start doing.
i don't want to spend much time doing things i don't think are very useful. i don't think solving leetcode is very useful to me because i don't want a job nor want to be a competitive programmer. but it is part of my routine because i consider it an important exercise for my brain and it has other merits too. but what i mean is that i wouldn't want to solve them all day long. but since i don't know what else i can do, i'll read books. i feel like reading books is the one thing that will always be of use. because it helps generate new ideas in the brain along with training other parts of my mental. so i'll do more of that.
and i promise that i'll wake up earlier than a fucking bird tomorrow and do my morning routine, and read books for fucking hours during the day before i get ready to fucking sleep on time. i will be fucking productive.
another thing i wanted to talk about is that i was feeling quite sick since yesterday. i had like some allergy due to the cold weather. i wasn't a cold but i wasn't feeling well. it happens to me a few times here and there and i want to fix it. my mom does too, but she recommends a doctor. i don't believe in taking medicine for something natural your body does (react to the changing, cold environment). i feel like medicine treats the symptoms of things that don't need treating. they either go away on their own or cannot go away. i would rather like to believe in magic and voodoo but more so in natural remedies. thankfully i'm in india and there is no lack of such knowledge. even today i just took a cold shower and feel much better and not cold anymore.
and now i am getting sleepy as fuck and have to go through my night routine so i'll end it here.