today was rather chill, in other words unproductive but i don't like to see it that way. i went to the gym for 30 minutes and added the warning i said i would on this page. those are all the productive things done today.
i want to talk about 2 things today.
first, i want to wake up earlier and have a routine that will be fixed for at least 6 months. right now i wake up only when i absolutely need to for a class, or i don't get out of bed until after my family is done with breakfast (which is 10 or 11am). i want to fix that. i want to be the first one up and i know that that feels great and i will be much more productive but i've never really been able to maintain it for a long time. here are some things i know about waking up early and i will apply these starting now:
- waking early starts the night before. no bright lights, no screens, no overstimulation and no varying bedtime. i do have a night routine currently, i just have to pull it back and start much earlier so i am in bed by 9 pm every night.
- when i do wake up, three things: bright light (preferably sunlight), exercise in light(can be walk and can be a full gym workout), have a planned routine for every morning. not knowing what to do will make you not want to leave bed.
it's hard to get out of bed right now since it's winter time and even now i can hear the chilly winds blowing outside. i suppose i'll have to force myself somehow. maybe a motivational or an unpleasant alarm. i'll try some things out i guess.
anyway, that's all about sleep and waking up. the second thing i want to talk about (and fix) is my diet. i have a diet plan given to me by my fitness coach and it's actually pretty good and not very hard to follow. the problem is that i need to be more resilient with stuff like this. once i stop following a plan (diet plan in this case) for one reason or another, i take too long to get back on it. even now i am only talking about it because today i had two meals that were unhealthy and not made at home. and eating out or ordering food has become way more frequent than i'd like. well, here is what i'll do to fix my diet then:
- delete food ordering apps.
- remove money from my upi account by either transferring it or taking out cash.
- follow the diet plan no matter what. if mom can't prepare something you need to eat, then make it yourself. it's okay to mix and match meals and days from the plan. it is much better to repeat a meal you had yesterday that you can make in 20 mins than to order some bullshit that will: 1. be unhealthy, 2. cost money.
- finally, let mom know what you want to eat. even she wants to make healthy food but she cannot know what exactly you want every time. sending the plan to her isn't enough. if she doesn't stick to it, take accountability and get her back on track.
even today, without following any plan, mom did make rather healthy food and she tried to get protein in the food too. this is much more than most moms do and i need to give her credit for it. i guess the most important thing is that i make whatever meal i can myself. this will take away some burden from mom and also perhaps give my parents inspiration to eat healthy (which they already do tbh, thanks to mom's efforts, but can improve).
all in all, for both waking up early and eating healthy, i have to take the means in my hands, be fully accountable for it all and just be consistent. just make it easy to do and then do it every day without looking for results. one random thursday you'll look in the mirror and results will be too shiny to not notice and then you won't want to stop.
so today i sleep as soon as i can (it's already 11:30pm), and tomorrow i will wake up early as fuck, eat clean as fuck, do some fucking work, and sleep on fucking time. it's a promise then.