today i suddenly saw sometime while in class...
i don't like any of my classmates. even my "friends" felt annoying and stupid as fuck today and i already thought that for one or two of them but today it was all of them. i hope i never become like them in any way. it's a living breathing anti-vision.
i've also been frequenting the hospital and doctor's clinics with my grandfather as he was quite sick recently. i realised today that eventhough he tries to hide it usually, he is afraid of death and ill health. it's natural anyway but just saying. i also think that he didn't experience life to the fullest yet and he is like 4x my age. i don't mean that disrespectfully of course, he has seen and been through much more than i have so far and probably knows more than me but i think that bevause he wasn't exposed to the ideas that i am exposed to about money, work, and wealth, he did what he could and went through many years. i personally would like to die in my 50's doing some crazy shit. and i'd like to reture in my twenties and spend the rest of my life experiences many many things and people and places. that's what i was thinking today for some time.
i also worked on my project. hope it works as i intend when it is complete...