my sister is home again and that has changed my routine a lot. haven't been able to write a post every day but me being lazy is also a reason for that.
university seems like a waste of time now. mornings are wasted. 4-6 hours are wasted every day. can't think of even one thing productive about university. it muse be hell because jt only takes. take money, take time, take effort, and give nothing real in return. only fake value. my family says it's just 1.5 years more. they say just get it over with don't think too much. they don't see what i see. but all i can do is plan around it. it's like i have to accept this dead space in my day forever. i don't want to but there is no option. my friends are shit. always mostly have been. nothing to learn from anyone. i am either better than them at things or their interests don't interest me. it's getting kinda sad and i feel sometimes i shouldn't think too much but go with the flow. but then isn't that what everyone does anyway?