the day started pretty well, i woke up on time, put on some nice clothes, had a nice breakfast, my dad came home after a week so i met him. it was all looking nice and rosy for the most part and i couldn't wait to crush the day. but then i went to the university and i won't go into the details but when i came out after 6 grueling hours of braindead classes, i realized that i hadn't crushed anything, i had only been crushed by university.
i really don't think that i've ever wasted time like i do in university, attending classes. those classes are the most useless hours i have ever spent because firstly, i am not interested, secondly, no one around me is interested making me even less interested, and thirdly, my damn teachers aren't interested (expect a few i guess, but it doesn't matter because either the subject is of no importance or the tone of the day has already been set by a few hours of shitty teaching. i know this has become a full on rant and i did not intend that and i will never blame whatever happens to me and my life on anything or anyone other than myself. that's a promise. but i do find these things annoying.
anyways what i did that was productive once i got back was i finally worked out after like a week (i had been delaying an easy ass core workout for a week!) and i worked on my project which was not great but not terrible either. some progress was indeed made but measly at best when compared to what i want to make. i don't like getting stuck in errors and making small ass iterations for the entire day, and so i might pivot this project instead of pushing because it only gets more and more complex the more i get into it and i know that it doesn't need to be complex. what i want to build is something simple to use and simple to manage. something i can perhaps do alone or with a small team. i don't want hundreds of employees (if i do ever hire employees) and i don't want investors who provide no value to own parts of my business.
that reminds me that i don't like doing things where i provide no value. like let's say driving a family member somewhere (market, etc.) unless i have something to do there. if they're just gonna do things their way but have me take them places then that is a driver's job not mine. but unfortunately i don't think we think we can afford a driver and anyway drivers we have hired in the past have not been a great experience but that's besides the point. what i mean is that i want to be involved or provide some kind of value, or even just learn something when i am invited to do anything by anyone. and i think most people would want that but they are taken by the idea of duties and responsibilities. i don't see this stuff as my responsibility because it isn't. if i am not there because of who i am, then it's probably a waste of time. i also see that sometimes you have to waste time especially when you are young and financially supported but i have to let go of that asap. i want my own money tree and i think it actually will solve a lot of problems. and i know what alex hormozi says: "money doesn't solve your problems, but it gives you more resources to deal with them" or something like that.