been so long, but i'm here again.
i'll go ahead and write my life's updates here. i am playing that video game again. i never really stopped but well, i'm playing on the computer again and not the phone. its fun and i don't notice the time passing. don't feel bored. that's probably a bad thing and i should delete the game right now but i don't know what else to do. i am also working with my dad on his business and setting up some stuff, but can't seem to commit fully to it and ever since i started playing again, haven't spent much time doing that work either. i am trying to lock in on my fitness. yesterday a kid in my class asked is i was undernourished. i know that word is not correctly used on me and he probably didn't really know the meaning but it was a good thing he said it. since i left my fitness coach, i have been losing weight and muscle because i can't seem to workout hard enough consistently. if i start training every day it's so minimal that it doesn't make a noticeable difference, and when i train hard i quit after 2 days. but this time i have a plan. let's see how it works out. i have also started meditating again recently and that's pretty nice.
family is all right, could communicate better and take care of one another better. i want to spend more time with family.
university is shitty waste of time as always. they say that we won't have classes from next semester. i hope it's true and not another thing they change as soon as we enter that year. if i'm being honest, don't like any of the people i'm "friends" with. they are pretty fucking shitty as friends/ just losers. the problem is that every one in my class seems that way to me, no offence, so i cannot change the group either. it's probably my problem but idk. can't seem to like these people very much. still no girlfriend, but i didn't even try so can't complain.
it's been a while since i last wrote here and seems that i didn't make my life a lot better. still clinging to the habits i wanted to quit months/years ago. still not doing the shit i know matters in life. still not spending time with people i know i want to spend time with. damn. what a life.
i need to change.